Thursday, September 11, 2008

Prayer Needed!

I am asking everyone to PLEASE PLEASE pray for my baby. I went in for my 18 week ultrasound yesterday, and even though everything looked normal I am terrified. Let me explain.

I am Diabetic. I have high blood pressure. I have had 1 miscarriage. I lost my daughter at 22 weeks into my last pregnancy. We still really have no reason why Alyssa was born so early other than I did have an infection in my placenta, but the doctors can't determine if I got that before or after my water broke with her.

Because of all these risk factors, and also because I wasn't on any medication for my diabetes after I had Alyssa (my insurance was cut off after I had her, yes I have Medicaid) I am at more risk for having a baby premature.

The doctors also told us because of my diabetes I have a 25% chance of this baby having some kind of birth defects. I am terrified! I am so scared, so sad, so lonely thinking about how my baby could be affected in any way. I am keeping good control of my diabetes, taking insulin, and checking my sugars regularly.

Will this baby have something wrong? I don't know. Does the ultrasound look good so far? YES!!! Thank God!

I am given so many sad and heart breaking chances of this baby having either a birth defect, or even the possibility of still birth. Does this mean that this will happen? NO! This means my baby needs all the prayer his/her little body needs to be born healthy!

There is so much more I want to get off my chest and blog about, but my heart is heavy and I'm scared.


Lauren said...

You know I'm praying for you sweetie! Have faith and everything will be just fine! I'm here if you ever need someone to vent to. =)

karen44 said...

I saw your prayer request on Angie's blog -- and I had to stop by.

Remember Jeremiah 29:11:
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Regardless of how God chooses to answer, know that you can trust Him. He IS faithful. "His compassions never fail,...and his faithfulness is new every morning." (Lam3:22-23)

Don't be afraid. Just trust that He is with you always.
-karen l.

JustMelisAll said...

I just ran across your blog for the first time and although i am truly sorry for your loss and struggles, am comforted that I am not alone in all of this. I lost my son last October at 22 weeks. I am pregnant again with a baby boy that is due January 30th! I wish you the best of health and luck and would like to keep in touch!